In spite of writing about giving up worry and trusting God, I’m stuck again. This trust God lesson is on auto repeat in my life. I’m stressed and sleepless over things I have no control over, yet my mind works overtime trying to control them anyway. I’m exhausted and driving my family nuts. Early this morning, God reminded me of all the times I was distressed followed by all He provided: I thought I’d never get married; I worried up to my wedding day that I was making a big mistake (43 years later I’m still married to the same wonderful man I thought I’d never meet). I worried that I’d never be a mother; then God provided twins. Every time we’ve faced a move or a job change, I’ve stressed about money and finding a place to live. God has provided exactly what we needed every time. So, now that I’m once again facing major upheaval, why am I so upset? I don’t think God is suddenly going to stop providing. He is leading this change. He will provide.
I’ve been working on this lesson for a long time. My third grade presentation Bible has these verses marked: “Therefore I tell you, do not worry about your life, what you will eat or drink; or about your body, what you will wear. Is not life more important than food and the body more important than clothes? Look at the birds of the air; they do not sow or reap or store away in barns, and yet your heavenly Father feeds them. Are you not much more valuable than they? Who of you by worrying can add a single hour to his life?…” (Matthew 6:25-27). It goes on to include flowers and concludes: “…your heavenly Father knows that you need them. But seek first his kingdom and his righteousness, and all these things will be given to you as well. Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own.” (Matthew 6:32b-34). With God’s help, I will learn this lesson in my heart, in my behavior, in my words and in my mind.
Have a blessed day, focusing on the wonderful way God provides for our needs, and uses us to help Him provide for others.